By Lady Onna, on May 25th, 2010%
 
During my wanderings in the time the BDSM world that was new to me, I met a guy some David Jackson who claimed to own DDI magazine. He was curious and interested in me because my photo had appeared in his magazine during some journalism on the London Fetish Fair, where I had recently wowed audiences with my very public appearance in a clear rubber catsuit, with my own creations. He called a meeting to discuss me being on the front of his magazine. I thought, WOW, more publicity = success = makes me feel so much more powerful etc etc. I needed that at the time. I needed it because deep down I felt so insecure and suddenly this felt like respect!.
Then he said to me “Do you accept money for DOMMING MEN?” well, to be honest I thought this was a strange first question, hardly anything to do with modelling or promoting what I make like the costumes at the fetish events.. huh? I answered, yes I would, but there isn’t much of it around, it’s not my main ‘career’ [guffawing with laughter inside - like I REEEAALLY should be taken seriously as some mistress, I mean, come on! I was SO NEW to the idea of BDSM, all I knew was that I only liked rubber and latexporn, and making latex, and the humble respect I seemed to get].
I didn’t envy the women that do this for a career, to me it seemed tough and not that rewarding. So ‘Yes’ I said, ‘but it depends if I want to play or not’. With that David went on to say it was his magazine policy that Dommes paid for entry into the magazine, and that strictly only models went onto the front cover, not pro-dommes, or ‘semi-dommes’ [new one on me, what the feck is a 'semi' domme?]. He then tried to sell me advertising space etc to bootstart my newly assumed career in ‘pro domming’, and off was the meeting on being the next front cover girl. DAMN! I thought, why do people think I am making money, or want to make money out of this game I thought. I love LATEX! that’s all! I just have to make it to sustain my ridiculous addiction to it, and if some geek boy wants to be my gimp for money, GREAT! Think I’d swap my nerdy hobby addiction for some dead end career in domming? No thanks. Talk about finding the perfect way to kill your addiction to latex by taking on the service game!
So, Girls!, if you want to be on a the front cover, NEVER admit to exchanging ‘tribute’ for your act of play. Apparantly it gets other Domme’s heckles up cos they all want to compete for the front cover. As I said, Domming is a tough game and not that rewarding I believe for the effort, having drawn my opinion from speaking to other dommes who seem almost embittered to men. So DDI NEVER shows a real Latex mistress on the front cover. They are all models, dressed in tut. It happens to be latex porn girls that sell the magazine but not a real latex mistress.
view the The DDI Cover Gallery.
By Lady Onna, on May 15th, 2010%
There was definately some kind of childhood experience that led me to develop a liking for the rubber. I have been through a few relationships polarised in different ways either for or against this.. affliction for latex porn.
In my first relationship, he was an average enough guy, and I was bashful to admit I wanted rubber! He was bashful to concede. It turned out he was not at all entertained by the idea – didn’t mind me wearing it, but not into the latex sex thing. It made me feel.. well kinda wrong actually. If you feel uncomfortable with yourself, chances are the relationship wont last.
That’s an observation I can definately say was consistent with all my relationships. If you’re uncomfortable with what you are, or how someone makes you feel about what you are – as a fetishist… Sorry! It ain’t gonna last!
Well, at least they did each for me last for about 5 years… I moved on from that first relationship in the first tentative steps of loving latex more than straight sex. I thought I knew what I wanted and formed an idea about how to present my love of latex to make sure the next guy was right, and failed again. No doubt he was probably damaged after a few uncomfortable years went by that made him hate latex sex too heh heh. By the time I found my last relationship, bearing in mind I spent my whole adult life feeling like I was perverted, or there was ‘something wrong with me’ . I was hiding my perversion, sneaking a look at latex porn in secret. I was so deeply polarised and angry about what I felt was my persecution for being a fetishist that I would not accept a guy unless it was just about the latex. So, the last five years of my life I lived what some people would say was their true indulgent fantasy.
As a sacrifice to believeing in a balanced relationship, and in need of latex, I gave up the realm of a meaningful relationship for one that was based on fantasy. I had a rubber maid. There were lodgers. All, I look back on now as somewhat broken people, like me, all searching and finding no-one. The so called freedom I had, allowed me to explore other types of relationship within a BDSM world. I could even ‘dominate’ other men; take out my fustration and some of my anger for my persecuted satisfaction in perversion. An exhange in this relationship surely, we would both have what we needed.
What I learned was that I did not want a BDSM relationship, or just a rubber maid. It was all exciting and fun, for like 2% of what I wanted. All I wanted was a relationship where I felt truely comfortable in who I was. Not putting on an act as some mistress, or domme. I like latex, I like playing games – with latex porn, but I realised that in accepting I was ‘broken’ was fervently keeping me as a mistress to a maid in a babysitting role I did not want. Therefore this polarised fantasy relationship also turned sour. If I was uncomfortable, so was he, and the more broken and unsatisfied either of us felt, the more we danced and played into those roles, and it started to appear to me, that something was wrong.
It was unhealthy, so I decided to take a new perspective, I could only do that by starting again, once again, far away and taking time out to give myself and wellbeing therapy. I use latex for something, it is like an addiction, just like an addiction to sex. Therefore, a rubber relationship doesn’t have to be solved by putting two addicts together. In my years of playing with other people, I have seen how it does and can work. For now, my satisfaction is in finding a comfortable relationship, allowing myself my latex porn, and then working out how to bring it into the relationship.
I wont be ‘damaged’ anymore by anyone thinking I have a perverse sense of fun. I wont inflict my fustration on anyone to procrastinate some given fetishist right. I wont accept or compromise what someone else thinks I should be given role to, when I just want some relief. I won’t pitch myself to a new guy as a fetishist or believe that a soulmate has to have the same characteristics. I have no expectations, and instead, quiety enjoy my latex porn…
By Lady Onna, on October 21st, 2009%
Seeing as the world is flat.. maybe I fell of the edge of the world? Well actually only as far as the Phillipines. My skills in rubberising people has spread internationally, and I have been rather busy lately video conferencing with an LA Production shooting a BDSM scene in the phillipines. It is part of a mainstream feature film, and not unusually there, I have been asked to costume the underworld.
I need to make sure I get clearances for everything I am taking over there as the wardobe I am taking may raise a few eyebrows in checking in/out. I have amassed a collection of latex gimp hoods, catsuits, latex Madam dresses, wenches, chastity belts – everything you can imagine. I will be working during preproduction fitting all the actresses who will be living on site during the shooting schedule. Much of the stuff will have to be darted and reglued prior to shooting, dresses replicated for backup for the undoubted tears and splitting etc.
I am the one that gets to fit all the oriental ladies up >:-] heeheehee….
Here is a sneek peek at some of the latex styling I am bringing into the film:
I would just like to point out – that I no longer make designs to sell. The business long since struggled to make me any form of living, but the skills have not been wasted. I have found my niche with working in films to continue my perverse hobby of dressing women (and men as women) in latex. Much of the indecent looking stuff i don’t really have pictures of. Since no photographer was really willing to pay me the time of day to pose in indecent stuff – I never bothered to take pictures of it, It will be used in the film instead.
I am still wondering how I will explain things like cock pants and chastity belts in my hand luggage.. Does anyone have any advice on that before I leave?
I wont be out of contact while I am there – things are not backward, but the hours will be long, anything like a 12hr day might be normal. But then that’s normal for film production. The hours are long, it’s never a wrap until the last scene is in the can, and I will be on standby all the time waiting for someone to burst their costume. I’ll probably be all dressed up at the same time.
The film is called ‘Victim of Circumstance’ and will be out in 2010.
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